Where I see God
Journal 12: After a Bad Dream
“Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations. I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10
I woke quickly with a covering of irrational emotion suffocating me. A bad dream in the early hours set an icky, sticky set of yuck of irritations on my morning. Thoughts that pierced my heart and set every fear I had hidden deep down rushing to the surface.
In a funk, I laid my body out face down in the carpet and tried to pray. Nothing. The grip of fear held tight.
Opening the Bible to Psalms, I read until peace calmed my soul.
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear. Though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging…
He says, ‘Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.’
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.” Psalm 46:1-3; 10-11
Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath inhaling the goodness of God’s warmth and provision, exhaling the fear and frustration. Silently, moment by moment peace entered into the crevices of my heart.
I prayed, “Thank you, God that you are Almighty. That you are real. That you are peace. Take these fears from me and restore your peace to my heart and sound mind to my body. Amen”
Let the day begin. Renewed. Refreshed. Whole again.