Where I See God
Journal #23: Through My Doctor’s Example
“Show me the wonders of your great love, you who save by your right hand those who take refuge in you from their foes.” Psalm 17:7
A week ago Tuesday my daughter turned in her first college application. The following Wednesday we ran around trying to get transcripts and shot records together to complete the process. By that afternoon, I started feeling a little off.
Honestly, I thought my nerves had gotten the better of me. (My baby is applying to colleges.) That is until…
I started throwing-up violently. This lasted until midnight.
The next day the pain had shifted and my loving husband put me in the car for a ride to the doctor.
I felt rotten.
The doctor said it could be a bacterial infection, but he really believed it was an appendicitis.
My doctor is an amazing guy who truly cares about his patients. He knew exactly the steps it was going to take to get me into surgery as quickly as possible. He started the process, before we even had the confirmation of a CT scan of what was going on. From each step, as I rocked back and forth trying to minimize the pain, my doctor stayed ahead of the course. By that same afternoon I was wheeled into surgery at our local hospital. My doctor understood the timing. My husband and I trusted him fully.
Recently my pastor preached a sermon on what it meant to trust in God. She used a definition I had heard described for the word “abide”, but when she applied it to the word “trust”, my world forever changed. “To lean into as hard as you can.” To trust God is to lean into Him; to know he is going to stand firm despite my weight, pressure, fears and anything else. He will keep my feet from slipping.
After surgery, when I was feeling much better, I thought about how much I trusted my doctor. I was in so much pain, I gave up all resistance and just let him do his job. I also thought about how often I don’t do that with God. I fight against him, or refuse to wait until his timing comes. I wondered if I just leaned into him, if things would be so much easier trusting that he has taken care of everything. This is definitely something I want to work on.
Right now, I’m super thankful for my doctor and the example he set for me. …And, of course, how much better I feel!