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Journal 17: In the Deep Waters
“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. For I am the Lord, you God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.” Isaiah 43: 2-3a
I’m beginning my third week with a digestive issue. Not exactly sure what is up, but something is. Two weeks of solid food struggle. Two weeks of back and forth to the bathroom. Blood work and a stool sample study (Disgusting!) have yet to determine what is going on.
This week brought tiredness and frustration. In exhaustion, I cried out the whiniest, “God, please heal me.”
This is what He did.
He reminded me of the last time I was really, really, sick and couldn’t get off the sofa. While laying all miserable I stumbled across a blog post by Cranberry Tea Time on her struggle with chronic illness. In that particular post she had shared about how some days she could do nothing but pray. That day began a prayer revolution in my life.
Wednesday and Thursday I got busy and spent a lot of time praying. I also spent a lot of time praising God for His goodness. He is an amazing God.
Isaiah 43:2 kept coming to mind. “When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.”
I realized I had a choice to make. I could keep whining or I could start believing in His promise. God will be with me through this illness. Plus, I have more time to spend with Him.
I’m still waiting to hear on test results and my body feels like crap; however, my spirit is a lot lighter.