Where I see God
Journal 13: In a Thank You Note
“We always thank God for all of you and continually mention you in our prayers.” 1 Thessalonians 1:2
In December I was thrilled when my son proposed to his girlfriend. They’ve been dating for four years; our family and friends all knew it had to be coming soon. And it did. A very special moment.
And then an unexpected deep sense of mourning entered my heart.
My son is the first to leave our home, the first to go to college and now will be the first to get married (thank goodness!) I am deeply overjoyed for him and his bride-to-be, but the mom in me mourned the loss of the ending of a life stage with him. It was a painful and messy moment.
I tried planting a beautiful smile on my face and often spoke about how excited I was for everything, but things were a bit dark for a period until I was able to process what I was experiencing. I talked with friends, went to a counselor, and finally submitted to God in continuous prayer for my heart to heal and my love to shine through. The last thing I wanted to do was damage a relationship with my son and future daughter-in-law. It was a struggle, but peace did come through. Eagerly, I got back to work building and encouraging.
The other day I received a text message from my son’s finance. It was a gift from God in the form of a simple thank you note. She thanked me for the work, I’d been doing on the wedding. A few words of gratitude hugged my heart while simultaneously bringing both a smile to my lips and a tear to my eye. I felt God gently say, “Keep at it, Kysia. You are building your future when you focus your love towards lifting others up.”
It was another great moment.