Where do I see God?
In September of 2017 I wrote a post about needing to forgive someone who had hurt my feelings. I published the post, not knowing it would be my last for the year.
Life at Thorntonville started after Christmas in 2014 when my husband challenged me start a blog. He wanted to encourage me to start writing. December 31, 2014 the blog started with intentions of writing about the places God was at work in our family’s everyday life. Each post would start with a Bible verse that spoke to me and then I’d share something God was doing in our lives. My goal was to publish one post a week. The one post a week happened, but somewhere my focus went off from where God was in our life to everyday randomness.
Autumn in 2017.
I was texting with a friend, a married twenty something who was sharing her troubles with me. She said, “I don’t know that I believe in God anymore. I can’t see him anywhere.” My heart broke. “How do I even share where I see God with her?” I thought to myself. I began to ponder that question and realized, somewhere along life’s busyness, I had forgotten to look for Him, too. I went to worship on Sundays, taught 7th grade Sunday school, touched my pinky toe in public speaking and helped lead a women’s Bible study but as I faced each morning, I realized I wasn’t even looking for evidence of God’s work. Around that time a couple of scriptures slammed into my heart pretty hard.
John 14:19, “Soon the world will no longer see me, but you will see me. Since I live, you also will live.”
Hebrews 11:6, “And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.”
Now, I’m not leaning towards prosperity gospel here. I don’t want to get caught up on “rewards.” I want to focus on what faith is and its role in being able to see God at work.
Faith was once described to me as trust plus obedience. I’ve always struggled with trust. In fact, I’ve had to face quite a few hard lessons because of my lack of it. Waiting on God to act is difficult. My bad habits of the past have been to rush on and fix whatever problem I had without waiting or trusting ( or sometimes even asking) God to take care of it. That being said, walking in obedience of scripture and the Holy Spirit requires trust in God. So I’ve worked hard on trust. The idea though that anyone would lose the ability to see Christ because they stopped believing him shook me up. To not trust at all would certainly lead to loss of belief.
That’s when a new idea seed planted in my brain. Around November, the month of being thankful for everything, I began to let that little seed take root. What if I dedicated Life at Thorntonville to writing a post about where I see God? Posting once a week for 2018. The focus would change off my family and daily living to God and then daily living. So for 2018 that’s the focus.
I feel like I’m putting on sleuthing gear like Nancy Drew or one of those mystery girls from Hallmark. I’m super excited to see where this goes and would appreciate your prayers for me to keep my focus on the task (I’m easily distracted).
Here we go… Ready, set, seek!