“do not be anxious in everything about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7
The beginning of a school year brings a whole lot of anxious about everything for me.
How’s everything going to work? Carpool? Are these teacher’s crazy? Are my kids going to really do all of this? Where do I need to plug in? Where do I need to back off? Where do I need to serve? Oh no, I’ve overcommitted! Is everything on the calendar? What if I miss something?
Ugh! Just listing out the questions I’ve asked through the last four weeks stresses me out.
Now, I’m four weeks in.
Most of the questions have been answered. I’m fairly organized at this point but am going to work some more on that today. I’ve already overslept and been late to one appointment; completely missed another. A teacher has already been e-mailed for clarification on how she grades, which went really well. My Bible study ladies have already been asked to pray for one of my kids. And finally, I’ve already had to back out of two commitments.
A lot of “alreadies”.
Busy four weeks.
Yesterday, I took a time out to spend flat on my face talking to God. I gave thanks, asked for help in parenting, as well as, for a clearer perspective.
I’ve spent time praying this week, but yesterday was different because instead of just reading scripture and saying words of praise and wants, I stopped to be quiet and listen.
You know what I heard?
“Kysia, I’ve got this. You are doing great. Let go of the failures. Remember me in the daily moments. Breathe in my peace and move forward.”
Last night as we sat down for dinner (It was our first sit down dinner of the week.) there was laughter, conversation and the worst salmon croquettes I’ve ever made. But there was peace. And despite the trials that are still going on from starting new things…there was joy.