“To this end we always pray for you, that our God may fulfill every resolve for good and every work of faith by his power, so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.” 2 Thessalonians 1:11-12
Last Friday we dropped him off for his first year of college. My son was ready. My husband and I knew it in both our minds and our hearts. Honestly, we were ready too. That’s why I was surprised by the tears that fell off my cheeks the following Sunday afternoon through Monday (yes, I cried that long!)
Monday morning despite the tears, I decided I needed to get myself together and attack the areas I would be volunteering for this year. I had spent so much energy on the college send off, I was a bit out of the loop. I headed into my church to speak to our youth director on an area I desired to volunteer in, only to discover that area wasn’t available. Crying all the way through the meeting (Yeah… poor guy. I think he was a bit uncomfortable), I left feeling even more defeated and confused. The one area I really, really wanted, wasn’t going to happen.
Sobbing in my car (by this time over everything imaginable -son at college, mid-life hormones, volunteering option not working…), I cried out to God.
Now, I’ve been working through the book Restless, by Jennie Allen on discovering my dreams and how the God of the universe placed my dreams within me to fulfill my purpose for Him. Perplexed by the closing of the area I was so sure I was created for, I prayed, “God, this area of service has not worked out for me for almost a year. Door after door has been shut. If this is not what you want for me, open another door. And, please, my strength is low and my energy is depleted; can you make it where that door is standing open so I don’t even have to push?”
Ok, yes, I whined to Jesus a bit. But you know what? He answered. Right away.
By the time I got home, an e-mail for another ministry had opened up. Two days later I was working in two different areas that will complement each other- one even getting to serve with my daughter, which made my momma heart swoon. Both are getting to work with skills, I know God gave me to use. Both are areas where my creative spirit can soar.
I realized this morning after reading my scriptures, that I have spent a lot of time (and will continue to spend a lot of time) praying for my kids futures. Praying for God to open doors for them where they can use their gifts and talents. Since those were my prayers I’ve often volunteered in areas I’m not so gifted in order to help my kids develop their skills and passions. Hear me on this, I wouldn’t change any of those times; however, somewhere along the way, I failed to ask God where he desired me to serve and how my gifts even fit into the scenario.
As I’m rediscovering who I am as a child of God, I pray 2 Thessalonians 1:11-12 over my family including myself.
Lord, I lift up my family and me. That you may “fulfill every resolve for good and every work of faith” by your power, so that your name, Lord Jesus, may be glorified in us and we in you, ”according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.” Amen