Restless

“Oh give thanks to the Lord, call upon his name; make known his deeds among the peoples!” – Psalm 105:1

Although I went to bed early last night, I woke only an hour later having had a bad dream. Immediately, I addressed the issues in my dream with the person with whom my dream was about (thus frightening and confusing them too).  Herein lies the problem. It wasn’t reality, it was a dream. In confusion, I became flustered with unrest and frustrations. It had seemed so real, but wasn’t.

I remember as a teenager having nightmares. They were so vivid, so lifelike. I’d wake in the middle of the night frightened. I’d grab my Bible and pray for God to wrap His arms around me. Opening the scriptures to the Psalms I’d read, as peace slowly worked its way inside my heart. Sometimes I’d lay still talking to God as I lulled back to sleep.

Last night, I was up and I was down as I wrestled back and forth with my unyielding spirit. “Life is good, why am I struggling?” I’d ask myself.  I knew what I needed to do and finally… finally I did. Flat on my face with words pouring from my heart I bowed in prayer. Like Hannah, my lips moved but no sound came (1 Samuel 1:13). My husband sat on the sofa praying too. Tiredness, exhaustion, fear, frustration, confusion it seemed seeped out of my pours. I’m not sure why all the emotion and turbulence during a season of peace.  The battle within kept raging.

Slowly, I turned and cracked open the Bible. Back to the familiar. Psalm 105, the telling of God’s wonderful works.

“Oh give thanks to the Lord, call upon his name;
  make known his deeds among the peoples! 
Sing to him, sing praises to him;
 tell of his wondrous works! 
Glory in his holy name:
 let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice! 
Seek the Lord and his strength;
 seek his presence continually! 
Remember the wondrous works that he has done, his miracles, and the judgements he uttered…”

Comfort came in the darkness as praise sang to the God Most High.

A moment of humility. A moment of strength. A moment of rest.

“The Lord you God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love he will rejoice over you with singing.” -Zephaniah 3:17

“The greatest good suffering can do for me is to increase my capacity for God.” – Joni Eareckson Tada

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